Missing hubby, inauguring Noynoy : 15 more days to go..

15 days more or maybe less before I get to meet my baby! Here's to a super duper excited mom...excited yet scared for the pain but all moms said that the agony is very much worth it. Upon seeing and holding your baby, it' s like love at first sight.  However, I already love Sean even if I haven't seen him personally yet. I guess that's how maternal love is!

My hubby left for the Philippines (again!) yesterday. I wasn't able to send him to the airport because I had to stay for work and my boss is here in Bangkok (he's usually in Qatar), so I had no excuse to be out for the day :( . He really loved the teeny weeny guitar that I bought for him in the market...so cute and I love it that he's crazy about it! He was carrying two guitars when he boarded his flight and now he's already in the Philippines waiting for the agency's call, probably before July 3 for him to join the ship Libre in Texas. I am missing him totally!

Today is President Noynoy's inauguration ceremony...majority of the Filipinos are crossing our fingers for the improvement of our economy and eradication of corruption in our country. But of course, he's no superman...but at least there's hope and in hope we thrive.

On Joevy's Bangkok arrival after his training : 21 days to go...

Yehey! I feel ecstatic...why? Because this evening my hubby will arrive from Manila for a few days stay here in Bangkok. Even for a few days, I am willing to spend like 7,000 Baht just to see and be with him. I miss him so much! I just hope that during the days that he's here, I will be able to deliver Baby Sean normally so that his daddy  will see him during his birth. I pray Thee oh God!

I am now scheduled on a weekly visit to my OB, so this Saturday, Joevy will accompany me again..yey! I love being with my hubby...don't get me wrong, friends like Marie and Abhie are also well appreciated for accompanying me to my doctor but still, a husband is a husband. *grin*

Last night, I watched the movie Shrek Forever After (probably the last sequel of Shrek), a little blurry on some of the scenes because it's not a DVD copy yet but still it was fun  though I wasn't able to finish it because I had to sleep at 10 pm so I guess I'll finish it this evening while waiting for my dear Joevy to arrive.

Countdown begins : 24 days to go...

I am now counting the days till I meet my baby Sean...so freaking excited yet scared!!!  I visited my OB last Saturday together with Marie and Abhie (thanks to their support and kindness) and the nurse placed me in a bed attached to a machine detecting my baby's heart rate and how often he moves inside the womb.  The doctor concluded that Sean was asleep that time because his movement wasn't that often as compared as when we were in the taxi heading home.  But as far as the check up was concerned, everything is better, according to Dr. Ratchananikom and I am happy for that! However, the nurse said that probably Sean's head is still in my right side (his favorite spot) and he has not drop yet...so most likely(and I'm praying against this) I may have a Caesarian section.  C-sect operation, aside from being so expensive takes longer time to heal and I hate  that since we are not financially prepared for that and I want to hold my baby as often as I could after I deliver him.

On news regarding my hubby, he already got the US visa and I am so thankful to God for it.  Though, we don't know yet if he is given a multiple or single visa entry.  He is having his ISM training this week and I soooooooo miss him. He will probably join his crewmates on the 3rd of July, same day of Marie's departure for the Philippines.

On news about me, I went shopping for fashion accessories in Chinatown for Floi's business. I really enjoyed it because of the inexpensive prices...in less than 2,000 Baht, I was able to buy plenty of items. I know Floi will be glad with these items.

On Happines and Sadness : 30 days more to go...whew!

It's been five days since my hubby left for the Philippines. I still feel lonely but is on the process of adjusting now... I am happy though, that he is doing well there, busily preparing his documents and participating in medical exams and trainings to prep himself for his on board probably by the end of this month. We are short in finance though...sigh, I will be giving birth without much savings, fortunately for us, Bhe and Jesher will lend their wedding money to pay for the hospital bills and hopefully pay them back before October. That is such a big relief because I am not sure if Ms. Anne will be able to give us back the money we invested in time for the birth. (fingers-crossed!)

I am so happy this morning upon reading the message of Vanessa (Nadia - another Doman mom), she is also a Filipina and she's willing to share tips on how she was able to successfully teach her daughter, Cammie into early reading.  I immediately replied and I am hoping that she'll get in touch with me again.

Auntie Jude, Cocoy and Ate Jing are in my house since the weekend. Except for Ate Jing, they are bound for the Philippines this evening  after 3 weeks of vacation.  I also learned last Saturday that Ate Jing is now separated from her hubby of more that 7 years (I think...). Sad, how love can start quite wonderfully yet end up in separation, much to the hurt and pain of their children.  However, that was their decision to make..probably, it's  best for both of them.

Leaving On A Jetplane : 36 more days to go...

Tears. These definitely cleanses the eyes and helps in easing your chest when you bear a great burden or sorrow.

I shed a lot of tears at the wee hours of this morning because my hubby is bound for the Philippines today to report to their office for work. Another ship, another contract, another year, another adventure. He is suppose to be used to this kind of job, but today it's different. The difference lies to his status, in his previous voyages, he was still single...but now, he's soon going to be a dad and he will miss the opportunity of hearing his baby's first cry. I will give birth in a month's time and that is also his reason for leaving, for us to be able to pay the hospital bills and the baby stuff needed. Sad...but ces't la vie!

Together with Marie, I send Joevy off to the airport, had a late breakfast there first and then he proceeded to the immigration counter. As of now, probably the plane is taking off....taking with it the happiness that Joevy gave me for the past couple or so months.  Luckily, I have my baby Sean with me...he will give me joy while Joevy is away. Plus, friends and relatives are always there to support and take care of me.

Yesterday, I listed some things that I will miss about my hubby, here goes:

I will miss...

• the breakfast, dinner and sometimes lunch that he usually prepares for me
• him picking and sending me to my workplace
• the way he massages and applies hot compress to my feet
• the way he passionately plays his guitar
• his being a facebook addict ( wala na akong kaagaw!)
• him making comical scenes and the jokes he cracks before bedtime
• his hugs, cuddles and kisses all over my face
• his way of telling a story to baby Sean
• his never-ending and repeated stories
• his mockery ( I remember how he said  that I now look like a mammoth....yet a beautiful one...grrr!)
• his way of putting gel/clay on his hair
• and a lot lot more...

I MISS EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM and it makes me sad...but I know I have to be strong for my baby. I need to think of happy thoughts alone!!! So help me God.

Defying Sadness : 44 more days to go...

My father went home to Bicol after 3 months of vacation here in Thailand. I feel sad yet happy at the same time. Sad because my dad has been very helpful, encouraging and an inspiration when he was here but happy also because my mom has been missing him for quite some time and now they'll be together.  My dad left on the 27th of May and my hubby's birthday was on the 28th. We then, had a little gathering...cooked some food (of course my hubby's famous kinilaw was served!), ate a heartful and sent my dad to the airport. We were a little anxious though, because curfew has not been lifted yet and it starts at 12 midnight, so we had to hurry heading back home.

That was last week.

Today, I feel a little sad again because my Joevy will be leaving next week to start another contract with the agency.  The ship that he will be assigned to has a worldwide route and that means  weeks or even months of no communication. Sad, sad, sad....I will be delivering my baby without him by my side and probably baby Sean will see his father when he is almost a year old..sigh!

I am missing my hubby beginning now and he knows it....but we need the money for the baby, that's why we do not have a choice. :(